& I usually do try to give off a more sunny disposition.
But there are days when I am Just OK.
There are days when all I have to give is Just Satisfactory.
Sometimes all I can strive for is getting through it.
Often, as women, we find ourselves on one end of life's spectrum:
Extreme 1: Feeling as if we are not trying hard enough. Like there is SO much to get done you don't know where to start. This feeling of being overwhelmed can be disappointing and leave a taste of failure in the air.
Extreme 2: Trying so hard that we are running ourselves into the ground. Feeling like there is no end to the things you have to do and feeling exhausted. It can lead to frustration and agitation.
In my humble opinion:
Life is Messy (hence the blog title). It probably always will be.
Maybe sometimes it will be more messy than others, but life will always give you these little (or massive) messes to clean up.
Some days you will be able to tackle it all and be victorious.
Other days you will want to curl up under the covers (and not come out for a few days).
Right now for me, I'm Just OK
& It is OK to be Just OK.
[I find myself still grieving.
I find myself still stuck in a pattern of shame.
I'm working on renewing spirituality.
I'm striving to improve my mental health.
I spread myself thin amongst the many obligations I have.
I worry about so many things, I'm certain my head is one worry away from exploding.]
And I'm feeling Just OK.
So: I try to make the best of my life, including the messy parts.
But, it doesn't mean that I wake up every morning with a smile on my face.
I've recently been waking up and feeling like all I can do is the fundamental things to get us through another day. Instead of feeling disappointed in myself, I'm allowing this temporary time to be just satisfactory.
& I'm just fine with it.
Are you? Have you felt this way?
Can you allow yourself to be just OK?
"It is only possible to live happily ever after on a day to day basis"